Life’s A Pitch – the Quiet Writer and the Book Fair

It’s one of the more humbling moments of writing. Sitting at a live event—yesterday it was the huge Los Angeles Times Festival of Books—and watching so many people walk by my spot in the booth, barely glancing at me after years of preparing the books I brought.

And the writers sitting next to me… we have some talented people in the Greater Los Angeles Writers Society, but it can be startling to see some of them working the crowd like they actually belonged there.

Like Leslie Ann Moore, A great writer I’ve known for years, but to watch her leading people through her book (“It started with the idea, what if Snow White was a revolutionary…”) and connecting with them again and again… humbling. Or Deborah Pratt, just as at home there and someone I wish I’d had more time to get to know. Or Gerald Jones, boldly calling into the passing crowd, “You like poetry?”

–Yes, poetry, in a crowded festival. His confidence would be painful if it weren’t so… poetic.

 

“Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in!”

One thing I’ve seen again and again in my fellow writers: most of us aren’t the loud, pitchman type.

Q: How does an introvert warn his friend that there’s an extrovert about to break into their conversation?

A: “Outgoing!”

Most of us are more of the Homo Secludus species. We feel the same thrills and chills that other readers do at a good story, but we’re most likely the ones who stop chatting at the proverbial water cooler and go off alone to distill our own form of that magic. Spending hours and years locked away with just a keyboard sounds like a good deal for us.

And then the last lap of that journey is to come back and tell the fans we came from why we left them, and why they should pay our bills while we leave again. Irony of ironies.

For me and for most rising writers I’ve met, it’s the stage of the business we try longest not to think about. And that’s if we do treat it as a business; the traditional publishing model promises we aren’t, that we only have the same momentary brush with self-promotion that any other industry’s employee has to face. We get through one successful interview (bonus: in writing it’s all query letters and manuscripts, no being judged on your smile), and then just do the work while the company handles all that nasty marketing to make us famous.

If only. That’s ancient history even on the traditional route, and of course in indie publishing our taking over the market role is the price of admission.

 

So…

So where does that leave the silent majority of us writers who aren’t Leslie Ann?

Most of it might be in the same mantra that already put the book on the table: do the work. We keep pushing, building those muscles, and looking around for what methods can refine what we’re doing.

–And, also like the writing, half of it is tapping deeper into the sheer Awesome of what we create. If we can hold onto the thrill or warmth or detail of a story long enough to reach the last page, can’t we have a properly juicy answer ready for “So what’s it about?”

And also like in writing, most of marketing’s work habits are our own to create. We’ve got blogs we can lay out, and other writers and bloggers we can find who share a connection with us. There are ads, and contests, and promotions in a dozen forms that we can analyze and perfect for our story… and for our own strengths.

(Hmm, you don’t suppose the people in that booth were there because they were the ones who liked working the crowd…)

So, we’re writers. We look around, and steal—research!—from the best, and dig deep into what we want and what we know. And then we dig deeper.

At the end of the day I found myself sitting next to Leslie, singing a few lines from Julia Ecklar’s merry little tune:

Ladies and gents at the front of the tents

You will note there is naught up my sleeve…

I’m not a “One-Man Magical Show” yet, but I think The High Road has a song or two worth writing.

It might even be the perfect pitch.

 

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A Writer’s Confession: Kvothe’s Ballad

The following is a confession I wrote to myself some Easters ago after a session of reading, that I realize I’d never shared with this blog. It’s word for word as I wrote it then, so make of it what you will:


Today time stopped for me. I’d been wondering if it ever would again.

It’s that feeling when a scene in a book works beyond working, when you don’t just lose track of time, you regain enough awareness to become afraid that something will interrupt you and end the one perfect chance you’ll have to find out what comes next all in one sitting. When you hold your hand over the page to stop your eyes from moving down and killing the order of things. When you remember why you read.

The book was The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss; the scene was the culmination of fifty pages’ planning—or many more, depending on how far back you want to follow the threads—when our hero Kvothe had brought himself onto a stage with everything from keeping fed to music’s passion to a deadly rivalry to his first glimpse of true love all joining in what happens during his performance… But there I was, lying in bed not so long from having woken up, as my whole level of consciousness shifted yet again. And yes, this was Easter Sunday when I read it all.

I guess nobody has these moments very often, not in their full degree. But I’m a harder audience than most, because when I’m not scheduling my day strictly by which combination of stories I read and watch, I’m watering my palate down by filling in hours with whatever half-satisfying yarn I can grab from the library or the cable menu. The moments when I’m not just satisfied but enthralled are years apart, the kind of years when you know all along another moment may never happen in your lifetime.

But for me it’s more.

I say writing isn’t my life, it’s what I chose instead of even having a life. And yet here I’ve gone so many years reinventing the wheel with my questions on what genres mean… well, maybe I’ve invented a hovercraft, but I still spend all my time going in circles instead of making forays into one tale or another. Where’s the line between craft and cowardice, and how many years behind me did I leave it?

Or does it even stop with writing, is it the whole way Kvothe lived on the edge of possibilities, and my wondering if I can be true to anything if I don’t try to wrestle the same power out of every day? Waste, waste, so much waste…

Does it mean I stop making charts of how to plot and start figuring how to actually gather the ideas? or that I go through my weeks showing my scribblings to more people, anything to commit myself to putting one word after the next, or take the one or two non-writing things I most enjoy and cut them out of my life as the price of dedication? Or turn the other way and look for real adventure in every flesh-and-blood person I talk to, to build the other set of muscles about truths—or just to honor what I say I’ve come to see?

Sadly, I know what it probably means, and so does everyone else. Just another chance to leap to my emotional feet and begin the journey off the beaten track, only to tire and turn back again. Not even out of fear of the shadows ahead, or doubt that there are treasures to be found within them, but just too tired to try. No, too used to turning back to even have a chance to tire. That’s what we all do, even most of the writers who try to point the way beyond… We turn back. And I’ve done it more than anyone, writing the same thing or the same reasons not to write, and nothing’s changed that.

But what if…

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